Relief

I can breath a little easier now. Nate got the job at Kroger and starts on Dec 30. I'm not too happy about that start date part...I was hoping that he could start earlier but we'll settle for the 30. I think he actually did that though so he can go to Nashville. I'm hoping that by going to counseling tomorrow that might change his mind. I'm really not into going to Nashville especially after all that's happened so I'm really hoping that the counselor is going to give us a clear picture as to what we should do and what is right. I just wish that my in-laws would stop trying to make Nate feel guilty. Yes, I know that he wants to go to see his brothers and sisters but what about what is right for his family. Does that count for anything. I guess not. I just want to get them on the phone and scream but no...I'm better than that. I'm trying to be the bigger person here but it's hard to not want to call and tell them how it is. Hopefully I'll have good news in my next blog. I doesn't even really feel like the holidays b/c everything is so up in the air as far as where we're going to be. Another issue at hand is me trying to find a job. It's in the works but nothing has come through yet. I feel at times that I'm still healing. I know it's so hard to explain but what I went through at Dell it has mentally broke me. I felt this way after the doctors office too but I need to pull up my big girl pants and move on. It totally helps being back in our home town. I know I couldn't do this in Nashville. I have so much support here that this is just what I need. I just talked to a gal today that I really respect and she was able to give me some encouragement which is just what I needed. I thank God for her and for others that constantly lift me up and make the effort to call or whatever to see how I am. OK, that's it for now. We'll see what happens after tomorrow!!