Done

I thought that was a pretty fitting title considering that today is the end of my 4 day long weekend and also the way I feel about Dell. I am so ready to be done with Dell. I hate Dell and I could care less if I ever see the building or any Dell products for the duration of my lifetime! The girls birthdays were out of this world and we had such a great time. Yesterday was probably the best day out of all of them. We went to Opry Mills and looked around Bass Pro for a long time and then walked around the mall. It was good just to be out and not have to worry about anything other than having fun with my family. Talking about family, I'm missing my family a lot today. I really wish I could go over to mom's and just talk. Aiva and I were laying on her bed just a minute ago and we were talking about everything that we missed. Aiva said that she missed her blue room and her jungle gym. I said I missed mom and my red kitchen. If I could go back now I would in a heart beat. I just wish that I would know what's ahead. I don't want to go to work tomorrow but I know that I have to for my family. At least until Nate finds a job or unless I find another job. I had an interview on Thursday which went pretty good but I just don't feel right about it. Probably since it's an hour away. When you're on the phone talking while driving it doesn't seem that loing but when it's you and the road it can be a pretty long drive. Today Nate and I were going through the paper looking for jobs for him and I really hope something comes up. I just want to stay home with my babies no matter what I have to do. I just wish Nate would give me the OK to not go back and I would stay home while he goes to look for something. It makes sense to me...I'll have my checks coming in for next week and also my commission check at the end of the month. I know that he would be able to find something if he concentrated on it with no distractions. I just want to be DONE so bad that I can almost taste it and I'm about ready to say forget it and just not go back. Lord help Nate if I do that. I know everyone and their brother would tell me that I need to stay there til I find something but I feel like this is a desperate circumstance. I almost hope that they find out and fire me. I know that's the worst thing to think about but I can't help myself! Well, enough Dell hate. I have to get going. Aiva keeps calling out "MOOMMMMMYYYYY!" I must tend to her with tickles and hugs. Boy, do I love loving on her! I can't wait til I get to do it all the time. I hope something comes up soon for a job for Nate!!!